this is the 1st sem, and also the 1st final exam in the university, of course will gan jiong lah. i didn put a lot effort on this exam, if really cannot fulfil enough units, i need to take the paper again. that time really die mad me ady. my gosh, what can i do now?pray for it lah, no choice ady.

i hope they will sayang us a bit loh, pity us 1st year students a bit loh.. dun force us too much in the 1st sem.. please be good to us lah. i not hope to get all As like other PEOPLE, but i wanna get all PASS enough ady loh.. isn’t it… my frens…haha…

but, now i m back in my home, it’s another kind of feeling, the care frm my parents, is the same with my grandparents. i will use for this month of all the time, spend with them. and i think that, i will not willing to go back to penang after a month. because i know that, we hardly to see each other during my 2nd sem in usm…

am i missing someone? i m not sure also… but i m sure that inside my heart, i still have this person, and i think this person also the same. so, i hope everything will be fine loh… i miss ya…

but, forget abt it lah… now need to concentrate on the last paper, French, wow… hard to believe, i learn french, but i love japanese so so much. exam will prove everything, haiz… hope i can get a good result on it loh… hehe..

this few weeks, really cant sleep well. worry about exam? i think not really… my time already become different with the normal people.. i really need to change it before my 2nd sem come again.. huhu… thinking wanna go back home now… everyone already home sweet home, but i m still staying in this university.. forget about it… left 3 more days to go… i wanna go to cameron ady..yeah!

someone told my mum that, why am i so busy all the time? why am i keep missing in the gakkai activities? and my answer is, why u all keep on asking  my mum about me? why u all do not want to come to ask me? please be straight forward to me, ok? i m not a kid anymore, not need to let my mum to worry about me… for those people out there… come on, dun be shy to find me and call me… my phone will 24 hours open for u all……. !!!!!!!!!

 i hate it so much… if u all think that uni life is more free, and my answer is totally NOT… i know what am i doing, i know what should i need to do… maybe of the attitude of yrs, make me feel that so ignoring.. yes, i knw that everyone care about me for who am i… but this is not the kind of care… feel like u all scolding me for not attend all those meetings, feel like u all keep saying me become lazy… excuse me, if i m lazy, then i cant forgive myself, i already promise SENSEI, the things i had promised that time when i saw Sensei, i sure will do it… and i will prove it out…

sometimes flu until sleep very charm de leh…haha… hmm… now need to start study back again… next week is my last 2 papers and this sem will end soon.. need to prepare for my next sem ady loh.hehe…

hmm… congratulations to mama… cause she know how to use the friendster blog ady loh…haha… feel so happpyyy for her…

recently, i m missing someone… hope the person will know about this loh. i think that person know, but just keep it only mah… hmm… this few days a bit unhappy actually, dunno y leh? i mean today… nt happy… haiz… wanna ki siao ady… chat with that person shud feel happy de mah… but dunno y lah… so sien dy… maybe got some news that i dunwan to know gua…

forget abt it ba… i know what i wanna do? and i know that which time is suit me to do everything… I JUST NEED SOMETIMES! please dont FORCE me to do something that i dun like… everyone also got their own privacy, and their own rights to do something they wan… so… sorry… and give me sometimes…

i miss my parents suddenly… dunno y? all my frens is going back to kuantan one by one, and me leh? haiz… too bad… i will coming back sooon, my frens, my comrades, and my ji mui…

oh ya, my dearest comrades and ji mui, gambateh in yr spm and stpm ya…

oh gosh… i m so happy with it… and now… i m so tired… until i dunno how to express out my tiring feeling… and now… i think i m start to sick ady. my  lovely mama also… both of us together sick..haha… recently do what also together… sick also together jor…haha…paiseh lah..

left 2 more papers to go… so, gambateh everyone… and then we can go to play ady… yeahZ!

and i m still sitting in front of my laptop, not chatting, but studying… everyone is sleeping so sweet at this time, and i m still sitting on the chair, reading something that i really  not so understand. but how also need to absorb it… people will thot me so siao… at this final moment sure must relax myself… but y still wan study… yea, i had a lot did not study…

and i need to memorize all those history, listening to some music and need to know the composers, the song’s title and also something about the song. my gosh… it’s only one part for the exam… how about the history? the terminology for each period? wah… that’s a loh… this is so called burn the midnite oil…

for those who really dunno what music is about… and what is in yr mind is just, music is so easy to study… only sit on the piano and play play play… please clean this thinking out from yr mind… and i will sit down and tell u all… what music course study about… how suffer am i?

yea… maybe u will say, this is what u choose… and u desire for u. yea, i know, this is what i want to choose and i m telling u, i m NOT REGRET for choosing this difficult course to study…and i LOVE it SO MUCHHHH/…..

peng hong will be leaving Kuantan and going back to Singapore. hmm.. hard to meet up with him dy lor… next year only can meet up. then the next, mayb the nite we gathering together is the last nite we saw each other, although i got 1 week here, but, time fly fast, and will nt wait for people. erm, i just want to say, i miss everyone here… fenny, hui, pei yee, jie han, jie wen, boon, yong hong, siew kit… hmmm… i really miss all of u lar…haha…

then the next thing is, this feeling hard to express out, unwilling? sad? cry? i very siao dy lar… i hope everything can change and give me sometimes to think abt it… what am i thinking is true or not?

I really want to know…

it let me think back all the days when i’m in kuantan, i really miss those days here… i really miss those days we do some work together…i really miss u all lor… all those i went other place to study, u all stll my comrades, still my ji mui and heng dai… my heart will be in kuantan always…

my sis really said it right, Uni’s life so hard… 1st week, then got assignment 2 do already… i thot can relax a bit on the 1st week… but ler… haiz…

Uni’s life is not the same with our school’s life… not honeymoon already lor….so, i got to accept it and work hard… my coursemates all so geng, i also must gambateh…

to my comrades, i miss u all so so much lar…hehe